Wednesday, May 30, 2007

WHAT I REALLY WANT

Thanks everyone - so, so much for your support, and kindness, and prayers, and laughter. Now we have recorded evidence that I can lose my temper. And yes, we are doing better. And the sun shines brighter today than it did yesterday.

I knew that I would be writing you today, asking you to pray for my ex-husband, because I believe in redemption. I believe that the hardest heart can be redeemed by Jesus Christ. Mine has and continues to be.

Today I was reading the following:

And the Lord's servant must not be quarrelsome but kind to everyone, able to teach, patiently enduring evil, correcting his opponents with gentleness. God may perhaps grant them repentance leading to a knowledge of the truth, and they may come to their senses and escape from the snare of the devil, after being captured by him to do his will. 2 Timothy 2:24-26

And God's Word, as always, got right to the heart of the matter. What I really want is not for my ex-husband to be a good dad. What I really want for this man is redemption. I want him to bow his heart and fully submit to a Just and Holy God. I want him to feel the embrace of his Savior and the warmth of that love between the created and the Creator. I want his heart to burn with desire for fellowship and intimacy with the Beautiful One.

What I really want is for you to pray with me, that God may perhaps grant him repentance leading to a knowledge of the truth, that God would rescue him from the snare of the devil, and that he would come to his senses...and know that he is gloriously captured and that he would be captivated by Jesus our Christ.

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8 comments:

Pat said...

OK, now I feel really silly for volunteering to smack him upside his head. That was just my tender loving way of showing my support!
Now I'm ready to pray for him with you, and I know that God would much rather honor that then my smacking him a good one.

KayMac said...

Don't feel silly, I almost took you up on it...except I didn't want you to hurt your hand!

Sara said...

ok, but can i at least give him a nice thick shot in the butt?

Peta said...

Oh, we all are just people. Don't worry...wanting happiness for your daughter is one of the most admirable things in this world.

Margie said...

Kaymac, let me tell you something, I hope that one day I can be like you. I'm sitting here with tears in my eyes, thinking that I can't believe how real and how forgiving you are. You put in Arlene's blog that she was like Jesus, you, my friend are a great example of what being a full on Christ follower is. I am honored to be your friend.

Jada's Gigi said...

Well it didn't take long for you to get that out of your system and get back to the Christview..:) congratulations friend...what a battle you have fought and perhaps won ...this time...:)
God is so good to change our hearts in these times of distress and even anger...all tools in His hand to bring us face to face with Him. I will pray for your ex...and for those who have hurt me and my loved ones

Live, Love, Laugh said...

wonderful post, thanks for sharing, I needed those scriptures myself, not that I have given into the temptation to quarrel, but I have felt like it!!! lol

Hil said...

You my friend have an unimaginable job. I myself had quite the rough time with my dad growing up and now I being a mom myself look back and remember all the crap and cannot imagine being my mom and having to sit by and watch someone who she once loved hurt her 5 little babies over and over and over again sitting helpless able to do nothing. But i tell you what all that has given me so so much wisdom over the years( yes yes even though im still young). You are such a blessing to learn from and Ryan and I were talking the other night you are doing a phenominal job with her. Here is my very much unsolicited advice.. something that might take the edge off of the fury is to immediatly redirect your thoughts and realize you have a great opportunity to help guide her through an experience that can yeild so much growth...so DIG... DIG DEEP and find the Lords face in all of these circumstances..we forget that he is there waiting to REDEEM EVERYTHING! I know you know all this but thought i would give you a glimpse of the light at the end of the tunnel I would not wish to endure anything that I went through again but would not change it... It has made me strong...My siblings and I are such a testament to the Lords awesome power I am one of 5 and we went through trauma with my dad and we all found ways to get to church on our own growing up and the Lord found us and now (with no christian influence inside the home) we are here pursuing (sp?) the Lord, two of my siblings have just moved to Austin texas to help with a church plant, my brother has just moved to a remote city in the Jungle of peru to be a missionary and help with the youth there, and my other sibling loves the lord and is still living in amarillo. 5 for 5 what incredible odds....bla bla bla all that rambling to say He is so good and sovereign. You bless me.