Friday, April 28, 2006

You CAN teach an old dog new tricks

Man did I blow it last night. Here I was with a group of people who were excited about discovering something about You, and I went and opened my big, pompous mouth. I watched my friend's excitement diminish with my every comment. I apologized and she graciously said "no problem". I had to sit there and squirm, knowing that You have already captured my heart and here You were capturing theirs and I had ruined the moment. I knew You weren't too happy with me. Sigh.

So, to You--I am very, very sorry. Heartbroken really. I will learn from this.

To my Friend (who reads my blog & knows who she is)--I am sorry. Not for having a different opinion like you thought I was apologizing for, but for stomping on your discovery. There is so much God has to show you about Himself. I want to hear what you are learning, and next time, I promise to listen with openness and join in your wonder and awe.
Note to self: Grow leg long enough to kick self in butt...HARD!

And have you entirely forgotten the encouraging words God spoke to you, His children? He said, "My child, don't ignore it when the Lord disciplines you, and don't be discouraged when He corrects you. For the Lord disciplines those He loves, and He punishes those He accepts as His children."--Hebrews 12:5,6


5 comments:

Tracey, in MI said...

addional note- grow leg long enough to kick MY butt--- been there. love you.;)

Becky said...

I feel I'm in good company.I've eaten crow on several occations-"Crow ala God" is always bitter sweet.
Love you, my friend.

Peta said...

dear KayMac,
thanks so much for stopping by my blog :) I think your blog is amazing, I love your passion for God...I'll definitely come back soon :)

Daughter of the Most High King said...

Well just got around to reading the blog and updating my own... you're silly. You didn't stomp on my discovery. I think it's awesome that we got into a discussion. I never mind when people have different opinions.... I love talking to everyone about anything. I have a very intelligent friend. He's in his 30s and it just so happens he is a gay ignostic, who used to be a Christian. We've gotten into many talks and he clearly doesn't agree with me and is so smart that he can talk circles around me. But I love our discussions and just because he makes good points doesn't mean it sways me from what I think. It just makes me re-examine why I think it. And I NEVER have a problem doing that. I love to really question why I believe the things I do and then come to a solid conclusion. You have not "stomped on my discovery", and if ever you disagree with something I say, bring it up. That's why the group exsists. Not to argue over petty things like church denominations tend to do, but to bring up honest questions to believers who really should have a foundation to what they believe and why they believe it.

I love you Kathy!!!
Meliss

KayMac said...

I love you too. And this was YOUR Bible study, and I need to remember that. Like I said, it was not about differing opinions, it was about joining you in celebrating the revelations God is bringing you, which is just as important as discussion and debate. Plus, there are others there who I have no clue about as to their closeness with Christ. Rachel's first piano teacher gifted her with a love of music. Now her teachers can concentrate on technique and music theory, etc...because the foudational love is already there. That is what I stomped on...the development of that totally, insanely, full-out dedication and love for our Lord.

I also trust Him when He convicts me...I trust His discipline in my life...and sadly, have had enough experience to recognize it when it happens.
I am excited about the things God is placing on your heart. I am very grateful that He has brought you into our lives. Mom mc